After getting my car (thats as old as me) an alignment im headed off to see the only other Francis besides myself of course left in my world Aunt Dede
then im taking my 3 hour drive home

so the main thing on my mind these past few days is this terrible thing happening with Conan O'Brien and the tonight show. This is the most ridiculous thing Ive ever heard of!
This is my and only my opinion but i believe that Conan is was better then Leno by far funnier actually! I know this sound ridiculous but Conan seriously helps after a bad day maybe its his crazy hair and the fact that the show has some funny writers but its a damn good show.
Im sure it will all work out okay i just needed to put that out there

I'm off to go save my poor old car!

its been way to long since Ive written!
I cant believe the holidays are over and its already 2010. It just seems like everything went by so fast. The holidays were kinda hard but since ive have such an amazing family that keeps me on my toes it wasn't as hard as i thought it was going to be. So ive been spending alot of time not doing much but sitting around the ranch and hanging out with my dear Aaron i don't know what id do without him for sure. School is starting up soon its going to be a hectic semester! Ive decided now that im going to be a park ranger. Im going to be moving into my own apartment soon which is so exciting. Living with Jennifer has been interesting, i guess you could say. Actually its just been a real learning experience. I learned i cannot live with her, lately its been alot better though and im actually not as stressed out as before.

My new years resolution is to put my happiness first
I realized when im happy and content that i feel much better physically mental and emotionally and i think my dad prefer me to be happy.

happy new years

this past weekend was another weekend i got to spent with aaron yay!
i just adore him, even if we are totally lazy and only go outside for a few mins and then retreat back into my home hes totally cool with doing nothing. and ive become a sort of home body lately so for him to understand was extremely needed!

so my whole body is extremely sore, no joke it hurts to walk. i have a bet with Aaron that i cant run everyday for 4 weeks but i think i can ! its more of a self empowerment challenge and so far its going pretty well!

im really trying to get things together and to focus on living for the day and living in the moment! I just want to make a better jade and then ill work on making a better world maybe !

my life has been and extreme roller coaster lately but somehow im surviving even though i have same pretty grim looking days with a little help form my few friends and the words of advice i have acquired from an amazing woman i know how helped me see some little sliver of sunshine throughout each day.

i had an amazing birthday with my bestie meg and my soul mate aaron who are the two people besides my mom i couldnt live without right now

i desperately need to get another job im starting to run low in my savings, i didnt realize how much money everything is! i think all my money is going to food and gasoline and the occasional outing to forever 21 (shopping is good for the sould ive heard)

today i was up before the sun which hasnt happened in god knows how long and drove all the way to hillsbrough to take care of a ticket blah then drove all the way back to austin before noon. im extremely proud of myself. oh and the people at the DPS ...fags. i don't get why the have to constantly be rude. oh well

i have what feels like a billion papers to write. i feel as though i need to start working harder so i am going to try i dont know how well its going to work out but im most definitely not going to give up

i took Lula to the vet at like 2a.m. Monday and didn't sleep at all that night and she died around 10am yesterday.

yesterday was also Jens birthday, i slept all day and she was at her new work but i did take her out to dinner which was a well needed meal!

its so hard to fake happy and to make yourself get out when you are so far down that black hole

there have been so many ups and downs in the past week, my life is a roller coaster for sure...
my beautiful mother came down this weekend, we went to Lebowskifest! the dude abides =] it was on the first day of this crazy cold weather we were so frozen by the end of the movie. oh and i got a (fake) raccoon hat! its pretty awesome.

Tomorrow is Jens birthday! yay i don't know what i'ma do for her though... probably bake her a cake or something. I really need to go read this Fredrick Douglass book.

everything is going to be okay for now, maybe things are taking a turn for the good finally.

its raining! its pouring !

i love when its raining!

so last night i decided to do something really random, a friend of mine invited me to go to Stubbs and see some DJ and i was already in my PJ's laying on my couch, but i decided to go. It turned out to be a lot of fun, i love people watching in Austin! so many different kinds of amazing people down here.

I'm just gonna work on this exam and rewrite a paper i have so nothing exciting today!

i think Kaitlin is supposed to come out tomorrow, i hope she does i ha vent seen any of them besides meg since all the graduations. It'll be fun.