wonderful

i don't know why but when i see someone who i think is really interesting or just someone i know i would probably get along with i get to nervous to even try to talk to them.i cant push the words out, they are all there stuck in my head i just cannot get them past my thoughts, its like i cant make anything verbal. its kinda of dumb cause i know once i start talking all will be okay its just that initial first step. I need to work on my self esteem so badly. I think its one of the big reasons i get stuck in a rut sometimes. I am no more flawed then the person next to me. so why should i worry. we are all humans.why should we feel less interesting then any other person? I'm kinda on a rant. I feel ashamed of myself for being timid, its not really who i am, but it come out sometimes.and i guess its who i am that day. As Marilyn Monroe put it "i just want to be wonderful."