she smiles sweetly

for the past few days ive started watching Weeds from the beginning. I love this show, it makes me wish i had showtime. oh and i love the Transformers movies now.

I have been kinda outta sorts lately. I dont know why. I know something inside of me is a little off, i kinda feel numb... and its a bad numb. I am really not sure if its a bad thing though. Maybe my body is just overly excited about moving and its shutting down some of my other feelings.
Sometimes when i look back at the day i dont realize it was actually me. Weirdness.

If i don't take anything i think i could stay up all night with no problem.
Last night i didn't even realize that it was already near 4 in the morning before i thought of going to sleep. Another sign telling me i need to do more, i probably need to get out of the house. I enjoy doing nothing though, its a little sad.

I ran into a friend of mine Audrey today when i went to go buy a new broom. It was raining outside. I don't know what i was thinking about then i heard a familiar voice call my name, and there she was. Audrey was one of the only people who could actually make me feel better after my dad passed away. When i started to talk to her today i felt like crying. I have no idea why though. We weren't talking about anything sad i just felt like crying. Maybe my mind was exhausted and didn't want excel anymore.