she smiles sweetly

today was the epitome of a terrible day.

if you remember the children book Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day well that's about how my day went and like the story my mom was there to make me feel better by making me soup and a hot turkey and cheese

I woke up and everything seemed fine and i was excited cause i was going to Austin with my little brother.

I am so glad that i knew my way to Austin because the GPS thingy decided it didn't want to work. Then my ipod died. Everything would have been fine if i just would have listened to my first instinct but no i missed an exit and ended up in the middle of nowhere. Oh and my brother is no help what so ever. Then he realizes he has a GPS on his damn iphone and so we made it to our first stop. Then we got lost a few more times before we made it to Jimmy Johns for lunch.Every time we got lost was so frustrating, Jacob was just being obnoxious still not helpful and it just put me in the worst mood. I wanted to just break down and cry at that point.Probably the best part about my trip was my sandwich. Then i went up to the school so i could fix my residency to fix my tuition. Denied, same lady that messed me around last time. Then on the way to take Jacob to his mom, i didn't listen to my gut I listened to my gut again and got lost. Well while i was trying to get back to the highway i get pulled over for doing 50 in a 35. I was lost, i was looking for signs to lead me home not freaking speed signs and that ass gave me a ticket. I get to the outlet malls to take back some stuff for mom and this is where i break down. I start balling when i walk out of some store and i giant black marks all down my face it didnt even bother me. It relieving to cry to let out all the built up annoyance of the day.I know this sounds ridiculous to read but it was just one bad thing after another.

I was really hoping my brother would be kind of excited to take a trip to Austin, but he didn't seem interested at all the whole ride. I should have just gone alone. It makes me feel shitty when i try to make it a good day and i can't even make myself try to smile. I want to be happy, i hate being down and frustrated it just kills me inside.

I saw a sign today that said "Not all days are good. Somedays your the pigeon and somedays yout the statue." I am definitely the statue today, a bronze statue painted white by a coat of bird shit.