hair

how is it that a hair cut or a new style or color can make you feel like a different person?
I don't remember the last time my hair has been this short. I keep running my fingers through it and before i know it I've already run my hand all the way to the end.

i felt like a crazy person today. I had my hamster in the passenger seat and my cat in my lap while i was try to drive to my grandmas. oh and i get to do it all again tomorrow!

my road trip with my momma starts thursday I'm beyond excited

Rain in Dallas just makes me so happy.
It reminds me of when i was younger and my parents were still together, we lived in this old house on the M streets and every time it would rain i would go out in my swim suite and play in the streets.

my day started around noon, me and meg went to pick her car up from Daniels house, then went to breakfast with Olivia and Kaitlin. I think ihop is one of my favorite places to eat. Probably not the healthiest but stuffed french toast is so amazing.

Then i was back on the highway headed home.

I finished all four seasons of weeds and all that is out for season 5 before we headed to the new house.

I slept the whole way, I couldn't resist. When i wouldn't go to sleep as a baby one of my parents would put me in the car and drive me around until i would fall asleep. I think its drilled into my head to sleep in cars and i always get the best sleep.

I think were going to watch pulp fiction tonight yay!
My mom is dancing to boogie fever as she making a drink right now.


this is for Friday:

i went to the mall to find a dress for my elementary school reunion today!
forever 21 is one of the craziest busy stores, and so overwhelming with all the colors! They always have really good prices that make up for the craziness.

then i went home and watched weeds while i was getting ready.

My mind has been so blown!
Its been 6 years since we were in Elementary school, and looking at everyone now and remembering how we all looked back then seeing them now is so funny to me. We all have that same initial look we had back then but we are just bigger and older versions.

After Daniels we went to our friend Taylor's' house in the pouring rain. Running from Daniels front door to Sophia's car we were completely drenched. Then i had to run into 7-11, soaking wet standing in that freezing store was torture!

At Taylor's i think i spent to whole time talking to Jessica and Sophia, and renamed a few people.
It was a really funny, i guess the word would be funny, night.

when me and Meagan got back to her house i sat outside on the porch for awhile. It was the first time in so long that i felt content, i felt happy, i felt peace and it all way good.

when i went in Meg was already out. So i flipped through the TV stations till i found something interesting on, and i feel asleep to John Travolta's disco dancing self in Saturday Night Fever.

today was the epitome of a terrible day.

if you remember the children book Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day well that's about how my day went and like the story my mom was there to make me feel better by making me soup and a hot turkey and cheese

I woke up and everything seemed fine and i was excited cause i was going to Austin with my little brother.

I am so glad that i knew my way to Austin because the GPS thingy decided it didn't want to work. Then my ipod died. Everything would have been fine if i just would have listened to my first instinct but no i missed an exit and ended up in the middle of nowhere. Oh and my brother is no help what so ever. Then he realizes he has a GPS on his damn iphone and so we made it to our first stop. Then we got lost a few more times before we made it to Jimmy Johns for lunch.Every time we got lost was so frustrating, Jacob was just being obnoxious still not helpful and it just put me in the worst mood. I wanted to just break down and cry at that point.Probably the best part about my trip was my sandwich. Then i went up to the school so i could fix my residency to fix my tuition. Denied, same lady that messed me around last time. Then on the way to take Jacob to his mom, i didn't listen to my gut I listened to my gut again and got lost. Well while i was trying to get back to the highway i get pulled over for doing 50 in a 35. I was lost, i was looking for signs to lead me home not freaking speed signs and that ass gave me a ticket. I get to the outlet malls to take back some stuff for mom and this is where i break down. I start balling when i walk out of some store and i giant black marks all down my face it didnt even bother me. It relieving to cry to let out all the built up annoyance of the day.I know this sounds ridiculous to read but it was just one bad thing after another.

I was really hoping my brother would be kind of excited to take a trip to Austin, but he didn't seem interested at all the whole ride. I should have just gone alone. It makes me feel shitty when i try to make it a good day and i can't even make myself try to smile. I want to be happy, i hate being down and frustrated it just kills me inside.

I saw a sign today that said "Not all days are good. Somedays your the pigeon and somedays yout the statue." I am definitely the statue today, a bronze statue painted white by a coat of bird shit.