she smiles sweetly

I awoke this morning to find that someone tagged my car.

This is what it said:



and

needless to say my day started out pretty grim. I still don't know who did it or why, it doesn't make any sense to me at all. Random acts of hatred?
so i cleaned my car off and tired to make myself have a better day.

Its hard to be happy when in the back of my head I'm trying to figure out why bad things happen to me. I try everyday to make sure everyone around me is happy. It kills me when i let people down. It just makes me sad to know people can be so ugly and ridiculous towards other people.
The only thing i would do if i even knew who it was would ask them why?

I thought with the company of Aaron it would brighten my day. I just couldn't be around anyone. I felt as though i needed to stay indoors and do nothing. It was one of those days.where your happiest moment is when your ramen noodles are ready, and that 70's show is on.
I found out someone who used to be really close to me tried to commit suicide because he thought no one cared about him, that no one really truly loved him. I do though. I have so much love and respect for the people who have helped me though tough times even if its been months or years since Ive seen them. I wish i would of know so i could of helped him or just to let him know that there are people not everyone is fake. There are real people with real feelings that are willing to help. He knows now and i hope he never forgets.

Before Dominik left he bought me a Beauty and the Beast movie. I couldn't sleep last night so i watch some of it. I don't know why it was my favorite movie when i was a kid. Belle is just kinda of plain, but shes smart and she sees though his awfulness. Maybe i knew i could relate to her even though i was so young somehow i knew. I wish i could remember what i thought the first time i saw it.

I don't know if i believe in fate or that everything is random.
I think somethings are fate like when you fall in love , and somethings are just random like starting a conversation with the checkout lady about cereal. I just hope the random acts of fate lead everyone to a little bit of happiness.