she smiles sweetly

i watched my clock all last night.
i couldn't sleep once again anytime i would start to actually be asleep id fall into one of those dreams that are so real that some part of you is still awake, and every time it would be these crazy nightmares. so the times i was asleep my mind was definitely not rested.

Finally seven rolled around and i was up.
and around eight-thirty my mom, her mom, my auntie bri, and i were off to Hillsborro for bri to enter some modeling contest.

so we get there sign bri up around ten and have to occupy our time until three. Well what other way for four girls to spend five hours then shopping at the outlet malls.

Bri was finally up for her walk. As we all expected she totally nailed it. Then the final results were up. The two runners up were called.. neither were bri. Then the first winner.. nope.. Second winner.. nope. My beautiful bri had not been chosen i felt heartbroken for her. Then we figured out that they were looking for kinda all American type of girl ya know the walmart type. So my goal is to find and agency for her cause this girl is full of potential.

I slept the whole ride home. They couldn't even make be budge when they told me they would buy me ice cream. So i have high hopes for my sleeping ability tonight.

After dropping off GJ and Bri, mom and i were off to Desoto to get my little cousins Ike and Max. The cutest little boys ever! Mom and i were so tired we were forcing ourselves to talk about really random subjects from making up dance moves, to how all our favorite shows get cancelled, to giant fountains, and just the most random things i cant really remember at the moment.

Once again on the subject of maternal instinct after hours of trying to get max to sleep her finally dozes off and i can go finish watching a terrible boot leg version of The Hangover i hear him cry. Mom and i both jump up to go check. He is just wide awake. Then mom had the wonderful idea of invention baby ear plugs so they wont be bothered.

On my way back from taking my uncle Derek home i had this terrible feeling i was just going to fall asleep right in my car. I got to the point where i was squinting to see the road. But i made it safely and that all that matters.

Im off to bed and hopefully to rest my heavy mind.