this past weekend was another weekend i got to spent with aaron yay!
i just adore him, even if we are totally lazy and only go outside for a few mins and then retreat back into my home hes totally cool with doing nothing. and ive become a sort of home body lately so for him to understand was extremely needed!

so my whole body is extremely sore, no joke it hurts to walk. i have a bet with Aaron that i cant run everyday for 4 weeks but i think i can ! its more of a self empowerment challenge and so far its going pretty well!

im really trying to get things together and to focus on living for the day and living in the moment! I just want to make a better jade and then ill work on making a better world maybe !

my life has been and extreme roller coaster lately but somehow im surviving even though i have same pretty grim looking days with a little help form my few friends and the words of advice i have acquired from an amazing woman i know how helped me see some little sliver of sunshine throughout each day.

i had an amazing birthday with my bestie meg and my soul mate aaron who are the two people besides my mom i couldnt live without right now

i desperately need to get another job im starting to run low in my savings, i didnt realize how much money everything is! i think all my money is going to food and gasoline and the occasional outing to forever 21 (shopping is good for the sould ive heard)

today i was up before the sun which hasnt happened in god knows how long and drove all the way to hillsbrough to take care of a ticket blah then drove all the way back to austin before noon. im extremely proud of myself. oh and the people at the DPS ...fags. i don't get why the have to constantly be rude. oh well

i have what feels like a billion papers to write. i feel as though i need to start working harder so i am going to try i dont know how well its going to work out but im most definitely not going to give up

i took Lula to the vet at like 2a.m. Monday and didn't sleep at all that night and she died around 10am yesterday.

yesterday was also Jens birthday, i slept all day and she was at her new work but i did take her out to dinner which was a well needed meal!

its so hard to fake happy and to make yourself get out when you are so far down that black hole

there have been so many ups and downs in the past week, my life is a roller coaster for sure...
my beautiful mother came down this weekend, we went to Lebowskifest! the dude abides =] it was on the first day of this crazy cold weather we were so frozen by the end of the movie. oh and i got a (fake) raccoon hat! its pretty awesome.

Tomorrow is Jens birthday! yay i don't know what i'ma do for her though... probably bake her a cake or something. I really need to go read this Fredrick Douglass book.

everything is going to be okay for now, maybe things are taking a turn for the good finally.

its raining! its pouring !

i love when its raining!

so last night i decided to do something really random, a friend of mine invited me to go to Stubbs and see some DJ and i was already in my PJ's laying on my couch, but i decided to go. It turned out to be a lot of fun, i love people watching in Austin! so many different kinds of amazing people down here.

I'm just gonna work on this exam and rewrite a paper i have so nothing exciting today!

i think Kaitlin is supposed to come out tomorrow, i hope she does i ha vent seen any of them besides meg since all the graduations. It'll be fun.

yay its finally October!

hopefully it'll start getting cooler outside and it means that mine and Jens birthdays are coming up I'm so excited!
so Ive been doing a while bunch of nothing this week its pretty exciting ! So i don't really have anything to write about except for my amazing adventure of doing laundry.
I'm really hoping that ill be able to get tickets for acl =]
well since i have nothing to wright about I'm going to some more of nothing.

so its been awhile since I've written i have been super lazy lately. It was all rainy and cold last week and i never wanted to leave my warm comfortable bed!

i have had a few changes I'm no longer blonde which is kinda sad but its just too hard to keep up with! oh and i finally did it i pierced my monroe.

i spent the weekend with my momma it had been awhile since I've seen her and Jeff. It was a really good weekend. I spent a lot of time just watching the giant herd of Elk oh and i happened upon the Kudu, ya Kudu in Texas! I love being our there ill just be sitting on the porch and when i look up i see these amazing animals swimming in our pond.

I've kinda been outta sorts lately. I think I'm just trying to figure out who i am again cause i feel like I'm loosing myself sometimes. It may sound dumb but it makes sense in to me. All will be okay soon i just gotta get some wonderful music and my life will be clear again!

well I'm am currently sitting at the library next to a what seems like homeless man who is copying poetry outta a book.

it seems like everyone i have meet so far is older then me by more then a year or two. I've been trying to figure out with this means. I can hold conversations with anyone and everyone without sounded like a fool so maybe its could have to do something with I'm a fairly educated person that has a worldly vibe. I don't know. I think it has to do with the way i was raised around adults, and in bars, and the gas stations my dad owned. I think I'm may have to look further into this before i make all these assumptions.

things are going very well so far. I made and A+ on my first paper. EXCITING! Oh i actually understand my government class. I just feel very confident in myself and my abilities lately. I think Ive had a boost of self confidence!

ah its been a long while with no internet.

I don't think i drove once this past weekend. It rained so much and i loved every second of it. Well except maybe the 30seconds when Brandon and I spun around on the highways in two complete circles in the rain. Possibly on of the scariest things to happen to me.

i honestly need to start working out or at least doing some sort of physical activity!
i thought i was going to fall backward when i was walking up the stairs, my legs were on fire! it may also have to deal with my hundred pound back on my back!

my precal class seems to last forever, and my professor likes to make jokes that aren't funny, and she puts herself down with kinda make me sad. But i could not handle being in there so long!

i went home for lunch and when i got there O.J. was playing with a peppermint and i don't think I've laughed that hard in a long time and then of course he's all in my face when he realizes that i have food. I have no idea how or why but every time i turn on the TV i end up watching Jerry springer... it makes me lose so much respect for America. I just can't believe how ignorant and crazy people can be.

i think this is the last ill be on the Internet today considering my beloved library is close on Thursdays...
i hope its raining tomorrow cause i am most definitely sleeping in .

had another late night at Ruta Maya, Brandons band didn't get to play on stage but they had this guitar circle jam session which was pretty cool.

Meet this older man named john who started the JadeSarahAnonymousJohnJohnDanielle club. Oh and made a movie about Brandon being President Anonymous. somehow there was a fire at the hospital when we were born and him and i were switched at birth and were raised in complete opposite environments and when he was running for president i was his photographer and something like that. It was a really long drawn out screenplay but it was totally awesome mainly cause all the music that was playing around us would have made such a great soundtrack.
Then Devendra Banharts twin showed up. No joke he looked just like him! ill put up the picture s tomorrow i forgot to put it on my computer today. He even had a really awesome voice like him.

this morning it was raining and it was probably the best sleep Ive had in a long time. So i had a wonderful breakfast of a few cookies and a bowl of Ramen Noodles yum! Its been a pretty uneventful day today. Had class around 3 and now I'm at the library sitting among these random lost souls enjoying a little literature.
Speaking of literature I just finished the Martin Chronicles by Ray Bradbury. It was so good. I never finish books withing a week but it was so good i couldn't put it down!

well I'm off to see what else the day has in store for me.

its been a long weekend with no Internet!

Friday i went back down to midlo and help my mom and jeff move more stuff out to the ranch. I really don't know how i get recruited to move stuff considering i can hardly lift anything too heavy.and that night we had wonderful steak! I've miss getting to have wonderful steak all the time.

Saturday was a kind of an emotionally tough day for me. It was my dads birthday. All i wanted to do was go take flowers to his grave site the whole day but we ended up having to move a lot of stuff and everyone was bickering at each other and i just wanted to lay down and cry. after several house of loading stuff into three cars mom and i went and put flowers at my dads grave and his parents grave. I wish he was still here. Its still so unfair to me, i just miss him so much that it just hurts my heart.

I went back to Austin on Sunday. I went a different way this time and it was so much scenery! i loved it. I just hung out with Jennifer and Asa had some amazing tacos and carrot cake! incredibly random much but oh well it tasted wonderful!

The most exciting part about Monday was going to Ruta Maya and seeing Brandon's band play. Its just him and a girl whose name i think is Danielle that could be wrong never the less she had such a wonderful and soulful voice it was amazing.

i could not sleep at all last night it was terrible. I just lay there wide awake till probably 4 in the morning. My first class was at 10 this morning and i thought i was going to just pass right out!
Tonight I'm supposed to go see Brandon play with another band I'm pretty excited I'm just going have to drink a lot of coffee to stay awake!


oh and I'm going through a black and white faze =]

i felt like such a little kid last night i took one of the cushions of the couch and my pillows off the bed and made a pallet on the floor of my room and watch The Life Aquatic (one of my all time favorite Wes Anderson movies besides the Royal Tenenbaums) on my laptop.

so Ive gone to one class so far. my precal class puts me to sleep! i think i need to get up maybe and hour earlier and do yoga or something so ill be awake and all full of energy so my brain is ready to learn! i sound like a commercial for breakfast food or something.

i don't think ill be going to the library tonight so ill have to finish writing about tonight tomorrow!
i know Jens boy is coming out sometime tonight and i might try to go to that drum circle but in reality no one knows what the day will bring.

wonderful

i don't know why but when i see someone who i think is really interesting or just someone i know i would probably get along with i get to nervous to even try to talk to them.i cant push the words out, they are all there stuck in my head i just cannot get them past my thoughts, its like i cant make anything verbal. its kinda of dumb cause i know once i start talking all will be okay its just that initial first step. I need to work on my self esteem so badly. I think its one of the big reasons i get stuck in a rut sometimes. I am no more flawed then the person next to me. so why should i worry. we are all humans.why should we feel less interesting then any other person? I'm kinda on a rant. I feel ashamed of myself for being timid, its not really who i am, but it come out sometimes.and i guess its who i am that day. As Marilyn Monroe put it "i just want to be wonderful."

i did not want to roll out of bed today
then i got to school and nowhere to park again...
i ended up parking 5 blocks away which isn't bad i need to start exercising more anyways

ah i was so exhausted in both of my classes today! i could hardly stay awake and my mind was totally off somewhere else. i hate that cause i tried so hard to pay attention.

after class i ended up hanging out with Brandon and went to this poetry reading thing and sat in on a guitar circle. I love how when i hear live music i can't help but smile. Then we went down to some bridge where a drum circle was supposed to be but i guess the drummers didn't show up that night. But there was a kid on the fiddle, an older man with a tambourine, a few guys with guitars and this girl who had such a wonderful soulful voice and they were just free styling it was one of the more interesting thins Ive seen in awhile.

its been a long day so far and i haven't even gone to my night class yet.

Went to my history class, got my parking pass, finally got my math book so i can do my homework blah, went home had some lunch, tired to get another key for my mailbox but that key doesn't work as well, and now I'm at the library getting ready for my oh so very long composition class.

last night i actually sat down and read the lyrics to a mewithoutyou CD and i was completely blown away by what all the song were actually talking about, i mean i know the lyrics but i never really thought in depth about them and i was just completely blown away. oh and i took some really awesome new photos and photo shopped for very long time and i even wrote some poetry. Its been awhile since i had done either of those its a habit i really wish to keep up but I'm terrible about making myself do stuff that i find creative i have to wait. Wait till i feel that inspiration burning inside me and then i can write and photograph the world as i see it.

I'm have the most terrible case of the hiccups tonight!

I had a very productive day today!
I cleaned the inside of my car , which i know this is gross but hasn't been done since the car was given to me last year. Then went to target, and all the little stores around there with my momma. Then went home and took a nap. This is all before noon i must add.

Oh i was on ESPN tonight! It was Cedar Hill Vs. Desoto game and more importantly Brittany's first Varsity game to cheer. I was so proud of her! It seemed like the longest game, but i honestly really like watching foot ball. But the bleachers we're not very kind and i was achy. I am seriously a grandma sometimes. Thank goodness Cedar Hill won then all the pain was worth it.

Tomorrow I'm headed back to Austin!

TGIF!

while watching my local PBS i found out that that picture i saw at the library that i just loved is from a Willie Nelson concert sometime in the 70s and they were talking about how it was strange that so many hippies loved his music and that he turned the hippie nation in the south into more of a weed smoking as well as beer drinking crowd. I love PBS!

well I'm back in good ole Midlo for the weekend!

went and saw inglorious bastards with Aaron tonight. it was pretty brutal but yet still totally great. Then we went to El Taco Bell and had a delightful dinner. I'm kinda worried about him. We always have a lot of fun and I think that it helps to know i still have a really good person and friend in my life.

our whole parking garage was completely full when i got to school today that kinda blows
but at least there was another place to park where i didn't have to pay.

so far my day has been just one of those average days nothing crazy has happened yet besides having to take my hike from my car through the pit of construction to get to school oh and almost dying from a heat stroke to save my healthy lunch of trail mix from the ants in my car.

there are millions of ants in my car it made it so difficult to drive through the swatting of aunts away and trying not to hit anyone that was kinda crazy this morning!

i should of remember my sign from Jack in the box yesterday and not have gone there ever. but i didn't i went there and got a whole bunch of food. I ended up getting pretty sick last night.

well i just got out of History and got my ID card... oh its just horribly!
I never take good id pics its kinda sad but whatever. Well i need to go and get my parking tag thing so i don't have to keep feeding the monster meters!

ill write more later tonight!


UPDATE!

turns out i have until the first to get my parking pass. oh and i found this out after waiting in a terrible long line for about 30 mins but i was truly entertained by this guy whose hand had grown to an abnormal size by a spider bite but had to leave to hospital early to go stand in the madness line.

Thanks to Chegg.com i not have three out of four of my books and saved probably $200 which is something i really need to do is save! save! save! not exactly working out but you know i kinda need food to survive. I really think that's where all my money is going straight to my belly!

oh so I'm just sitting in this little library right now thank god a place that has wifi closer to me!
they have all these old black and white photos around the walls and there is this really cool one that keeps catching my eye of a huge group of hippies sitting in a room it looks like some sort of protest or lecture thins but i really like it.

well i need to go but some more groceries hopefully HEB isn't all crazy still
when i tried to go earlier it was so packed i couldn't even find a parking spot!

Hello from austin!

im sitting in the middle of the hall at school right now waiting for my next class.

I finally found WiFi thank god!

so this past week I was pretty sick. I don't know why but i have a feeling it had to do with the heat and maybe lack of sleep, me and Jennifer are just falling apart.
Jens boy Asa stayed with us this past weekend, they are all cute and in love and all that jazz. Oh we went to Batfest! It wasn't what we expected it to be, there weren't billions of bats like we hoped we only saw a few off the side of the bridge.

My first day of ACC yesterday! i was late to both classes because i got lost both times. but somehow i ended up at the same meter. When i was walking to my car after my last class i saw this guy on his bike and his foot got caught in the pedal or something and he started falling over. i didn't want to laugh since i was the only other person on the street so i asked if he needed help i honestly have no idea how i woulda helped him.
Oh and on my way home i was debating between Jack in the Box or my frozen dinner. When i got to jack in the box it must of been a sign that i didn't need it cause the guy told me they were going to be closed for about half an hour for maintenance. so i went on home and had my frozen dinner.

i think things are going to work out okay, i was kinda worried at first but i feel content i feel like my ying and yang are in place for now.

i moved into my new apartment!

yay

its been a long few days, i don't have Internet out there so I'm not sure how I'm going to get my blogs done ill just have keep my eye out for free wifi spots!

besides the leaky faucet, the running toilet, and a few other things i love it so far! Me and Jen (now going my Nicole) are going to be super organized, well so far we have been. My room is going to be so "jade" once im done. wow that sounded really lame. I am so greatful of my amzing family for helping us move!

Tonight I'm back home to get the rest of my stuff, and i just wanted to say my blog is postponed till i find Internet!

ill jsut have to keep stuff on word till then =]

i finished packing today.
well pretty much.

at one point in the day i thought to myself 'maybe i should call the animal shelter to see if they might have picked up my cat' so i called and asked if they have picked up a really big Siamese cat with pretty blue eyes. sure enough they had just picked him up. i just hope he doesn't run away at the apartments.

I spray painted my bed frame yellow! its the same bed frame I've had since i was two which is kinda crazy 16 years later in still sleeping in the same bed, well new mattresses and what nots.

tonight was the last night i got to eat dinner and watch a movie with my mom. I think that will be the main thing i miss.

I love Quentin Tarantino movies! Watched Pulp Fiction tonight. One crazy movie but just awesome.

tomorrows the big move!

Packing is one of the most difficult things. I just want to get ride of everything in my room and start from scratch! i really did not realize how much stuff i have accumulated in such short time and in such a tiny room!

I bowled my best game tonight! 103 baby!
Well tomorrow is my last day of living with my mom and Jeff. Its all kinda strange to me. But I'm extremely excited to see what happens next in life.

people were supposed to look at our house so my first day back home i had to clean. I wasn't too thrilled.
When it was time for them to come mom and i decided we would just drive down the street to see when they leave so we could go back home. Well we waited and it was well pas the time they said they would be there so we went back home. And of course as I'm putting chairs in the back of my car these lady show up. It was just an awkward situation.

Then i went to the lake for a few hours and just sat around getting eaten alive by bugs, and just enjoyed my company and the beautiful sky.

i think the benadryl is starting to kick in.

Hey im home yay!

I'm fixing up my blog from the past 5 days. it will be up tomorrow i haven't forgotten! I'm exhausted. driving will ware you out!
i need some rest tomorrow is packing day =\

Roadtrip!

Each day of my road trip as seemed like a week. So instead of writing about every day I'm just going to put some pictures. Please to enjoy =]

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Our last day of roadtrippin. We went to Graceland, my third time to go. I just love it so much. I went with my dad the first time i went. I brought some of his ashes with me this time and spread them in the meditation garden. I think he would of really liked that. Oh and mom and i wore our I heart mustache shirts. ya everyone we meet got a kick out of them. Then we stoped in hot springs to see Meagan adn her grandparents.
It was a great trip! one of the best ive ever been on =]



Day(5):Drove for about 7 hours back to Tennessee. We stopped at this diner and while we we're eating all the electricity went out, i accidentally hit a lady with the bathroom door in the dark. It was pretty funny. There was this little antique shop that had these creepy looking stuffed cats!




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Indiana State fair! it was the year of the tomato , which is one of my mommas favorite things. We took this train to the fair it was pretty cool, we meet this old couple who were really sweet oh and tried chocolate covered bacon!





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Hit a few more garage sales then went to Goetta fest. It tasted to weird!







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We went garage sale crazy today!
Drove through Tennessee in the hills very very beautiful!
Then tonight we went to Liquor N' Party store and got mudslides and miniature macanudos and had hardy burgers.

Road trip!

Day one!

today was death by traffic! We spent so much time in three different states sitting in traffic i swear like 4 hours of just traffic all together. But we somehow found ways to entertain ourselves, good thing mom and i find each other pretty hilarious.
I was so blown away by how tall and pretty the tress were our whole drive, it made me so happy!
Our longest stop was at the Presidential Library in Arkansas! We went through security then used the bathroom then left. We were to cheap to pay the $7s for the tour. But we did got to the store and make one of those flattened penny souvenirs.
Then we went to Loretta Lynne Kitchen for dinner somewhere before Jackson Tennessee. It was so good!
Alas after 12 hours in a car we made it to the hotel
Look how nice the pillows are :

well that is what I'm off to do, have some sweet dreams!

HI!
its pretty late. I have to be up ready to leave in about...5 hours for my road trip!

so i thought that i kind of knew someone before spending anytime with him. Tonight after standing in an atrociously long line at target,sitting through Funny People, going to walmart to get cat food at 1230, then having a seat , a smoke, a laugh and just talking about whatever people talk about i got to see whats on the inside. Its pretty awesome to see who a person really is, its as though a shinning light hits them and your just completely blown away.

I enjoy talking to people about their feelings on the big L word (LOVE if you didn't catch that) you can really tell what kind of things a person has been through in their life by the way they answer. I just hope there is a chance for real love for everyone in future or present and that they know its true when it is. Or maybe there is no such things a true love just love that grows in time with another person.

My generation is the divorce parents generation. I hope that changes for the next generation its terribly depressing.

hair

how is it that a hair cut or a new style or color can make you feel like a different person?
I don't remember the last time my hair has been this short. I keep running my fingers through it and before i know it I've already run my hand all the way to the end.

i felt like a crazy person today. I had my hamster in the passenger seat and my cat in my lap while i was try to drive to my grandmas. oh and i get to do it all again tomorrow!

my road trip with my momma starts thursday I'm beyond excited

peace of mind?

I need to find my peace of mind. I've been so out of sorts lately, I feel like I'm loosing myself to some kind of emptiness. I know that everyone is constantly changing but I think I maybe stuck... if thats possible? Or I'm just not noticing whats changed. My thoughts have been so out there.


while cleaning like crazy today i came across a lot of things that reminded me of old friends. People that I've drifted away from or that have drifted away from me. It makes me kinda of sad, because if i saw any of them today we probably wouldn't even say a word to each other. I'd probably just smile and wave and they would in return. I wish i knew who would be staying around and who wouldn't be. It would make life so much easier.

(12:06)
frozen pizza!

i was sitting outside reading and when i looked up there were 17 elk going for a dip into our pond. It was probably one the most amazing things I've ever witnessed.

i spent the day reading Live From New York. I love when i read a book and feel like I'm apart of it. Like without me there would be no book. I always feel kinda of sad when i finish books its like I've lost someone after devoting so much time to something it just makes sense.

I think I'm going to try to make my blog look better wish me luck.

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Rain in Dallas just makes me so happy.
It reminds me of when i was younger and my parents were still together, we lived in this old house on the M streets and every time it would rain i would go out in my swim suite and play in the streets.

my day started around noon, me and meg went to pick her car up from Daniels house, then went to breakfast with Olivia and Kaitlin. I think ihop is one of my favorite places to eat. Probably not the healthiest but stuffed french toast is so amazing.

Then i was back on the highway headed home.

I finished all four seasons of weeds and all that is out for season 5 before we headed to the new house.

I slept the whole way, I couldn't resist. When i wouldn't go to sleep as a baby one of my parents would put me in the car and drive me around until i would fall asleep. I think its drilled into my head to sleep in cars and i always get the best sleep.

I think were going to watch pulp fiction tonight yay!
My mom is dancing to boogie fever as she making a drink right now.


this is for Friday:

i went to the mall to find a dress for my elementary school reunion today!
forever 21 is one of the craziest busy stores, and so overwhelming with all the colors! They always have really good prices that make up for the craziness.

then i went home and watched weeds while i was getting ready.

My mind has been so blown!
Its been 6 years since we were in Elementary school, and looking at everyone now and remembering how we all looked back then seeing them now is so funny to me. We all have that same initial look we had back then but we are just bigger and older versions.

After Daniels we went to our friend Taylor's' house in the pouring rain. Running from Daniels front door to Sophia's car we were completely drenched. Then i had to run into 7-11, soaking wet standing in that freezing store was torture!

At Taylor's i think i spent to whole time talking to Jessica and Sophia, and renamed a few people.
It was a really funny, i guess the word would be funny, night.

when me and Meagan got back to her house i sat outside on the porch for awhile. It was the first time in so long that i felt content, i felt happy, i felt peace and it all way good.

when i went in Meg was already out. So i flipped through the TV stations till i found something interesting on, and i feel asleep to John Travolta's disco dancing self in Saturday Night Fever.

today was the epitome of a terrible day.

if you remember the children book Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day well that's about how my day went and like the story my mom was there to make me feel better by making me soup and a hot turkey and cheese

I woke up and everything seemed fine and i was excited cause i was going to Austin with my little brother.

I am so glad that i knew my way to Austin because the GPS thingy decided it didn't want to work. Then my ipod died. Everything would have been fine if i just would have listened to my first instinct but no i missed an exit and ended up in the middle of nowhere. Oh and my brother is no help what so ever. Then he realizes he has a GPS on his damn iphone and so we made it to our first stop. Then we got lost a few more times before we made it to Jimmy Johns for lunch.Every time we got lost was so frustrating, Jacob was just being obnoxious still not helpful and it just put me in the worst mood. I wanted to just break down and cry at that point.Probably the best part about my trip was my sandwich. Then i went up to the school so i could fix my residency to fix my tuition. Denied, same lady that messed me around last time. Then on the way to take Jacob to his mom, i didn't listen to my gut I listened to my gut again and got lost. Well while i was trying to get back to the highway i get pulled over for doing 50 in a 35. I was lost, i was looking for signs to lead me home not freaking speed signs and that ass gave me a ticket. I get to the outlet malls to take back some stuff for mom and this is where i break down. I start balling when i walk out of some store and i giant black marks all down my face it didnt even bother me. It relieving to cry to let out all the built up annoyance of the day.I know this sounds ridiculous to read but it was just one bad thing after another.

I was really hoping my brother would be kind of excited to take a trip to Austin, but he didn't seem interested at all the whole ride. I should have just gone alone. It makes me feel shitty when i try to make it a good day and i can't even make myself try to smile. I want to be happy, i hate being down and frustrated it just kills me inside.

I saw a sign today that said "Not all days are good. Somedays your the pigeon and somedays yout the statue." I am definitely the statue today, a bronze statue painted white by a coat of bird shit.

i thought i lost my cat today, i looked in every corner in the garage under and in every box, throughout my whole neighborhood and in my house. I couldn't find him anywhere. Once Mom Jacob and I finished our buy one get one free burgers we decided to look again. Then behind all of the fishing poles he was. So i picked him up and we sat in the laundry room he slept while i photo shopped.

My long time friend Meagan needed some pictures taken for a sorority so this afternoon Jacob and I met her in Dallas and took some mighty fine pictures. Oh since she was running late Jacob and I went to Burger King again for lunch. When we were headed to the car this homeless man ( i just assume hes homeless) ask us for money but all we had was this free Whopper coupon so we gave it to him.

We sat at the pool for awhile and talked about all the crazy events in each others lives. Then i dragged Jacob shopping with me even though i need to get rid of a bunch of crap piled up in my room. I think i have an idea of how i want to decorate our new apartment!

It was a good day.

much better luck with the Internet !

i just watched my hamster eat an entire bowl of food and her cheeks are swollen to twice the size of her body and my cat just randomly attacked me , what is wrong with the animals in my house.

mom and Jacob and i went to a buffet tonight, my mom loves the idea of getting to eat a wide variety of food.she is this tiny woman who could probably eat more then most people i know. It was one of those dinners where everything seemed to be funny. Jacob spilled a bunch of M&Ms into an apple pie then the conversation about my blue hair sounded like it was straight out of a Dr.Seuss book. I love that kind of dinner, where you laugh so hard that you can't even eat.

I feel like today maybe my last day of being lazy, at least for being lazy during the day. I have this feeling things are going to start getting a little hectic around here.

sat-mon

okay the world wide web apparently hates me

i had my blog from Saturday-Monday typed out but then all of the sudden everything closed
so here is the shortest version

MON.
went to Dallas and got my cat from my ex sister. Drove all day in the rain. Watched movies and ate pizza. That is about it.

SAT.-SUN.
we were at the new house. Moves furniture that i am way to weak to move. Watched movies. Jacob killed a skunk. I couldn't sleep. My hair turned blue from the big house pool. Saw an amazingly beautiful pink blue and yellow bird.

it was raining again when i woke up today

after laying on the couch for awhile i thought to myself , "jade, you should really try to work out why don't I go run today."
so i put my bright yellow tennies on, strapped my ipod to my shorts, stretched, and then i was off.
well i made it to the end of the second block and i was already having trouble breathing and my stupid headphones kept creeping out of my ear. With no fear i toughed it out. When i was back home i just laid in the middle of the living room floor and i could feel the heat steaming off me and the sweat rolling down my legs, so i ran a bubble bath. It was amazing.

Oh i picked up my little step brother today. Its been awhile since I've even got to even talk to him. On our way home i had to take back a broom to target and go get on at the dollar store. ya my family is cheap but who cares. While at dollar tree Jacob and i decided we would try a Klondike bar since neither of us have. The results are in and neither of us would do too much for one, but they were good i mean look at the smile on his face.

we then had a delightful dinner of taco bell and watch Cool Hand Luke. No doubt one of the most wonderful movies i have ever seen. Last year mom and i were at Austin City Limits when we found out that Paul Newman had died, so on my moms arm was "rest in peace cool hand Luke" and on my legs as well.

a true and sad fact of the day : finished season two of That 70's Show and season one of Weeds

for the past few days ive started watching Weeds from the beginning. I love this show, it makes me wish i had showtime. oh and i love the Transformers movies now.

I have been kinda outta sorts lately. I dont know why. I know something inside of me is a little off, i kinda feel numb... and its a bad numb. I am really not sure if its a bad thing though. Maybe my body is just overly excited about moving and its shutting down some of my other feelings.
Sometimes when i look back at the day i dont realize it was actually me. Weirdness.

If i don't take anything i think i could stay up all night with no problem.
Last night i didn't even realize that it was already near 4 in the morning before i thought of going to sleep. Another sign telling me i need to do more, i probably need to get out of the house. I enjoy doing nothing though, its a little sad.

I ran into a friend of mine Audrey today when i went to go buy a new broom. It was raining outside. I don't know what i was thinking about then i heard a familiar voice call my name, and there she was. Audrey was one of the only people who could actually make me feel better after my dad passed away. When i started to talk to her today i felt like crying. I have no idea why though. We weren't talking about anything sad i just felt like crying. Maybe my mind was exhausted and didn't want excel anymore.

another day
with not much to say
no milk in the fridge someone will have to pay
then a burst of energy i decided to play
cleaned my room
then went out of my way to get some timothy hay
making sure my hammy was okay
once again i was out the door and headed to the store
Buy one get one free at whataburger night is the night for me
one movie down another to go
hopefully my mind will be blown
life on the couch is what i call home.

the highlight of my day was when Aaron took me to the aquarium.
the Dallas aquarium is pretty much an indoor zoo. Complete with monkeys and a jaguar, its amazing if i may say.

Then we surprised my mom at her work. Mrs.Vivian sang to us in my moms office , she had such a great and mighty voice! Then we went and hung out in Sylvia's office since shes the snack fairy of the office. I think my mom enjoyed her surprise.

then my only meal of today Micky D's. something i haven't ate in literally 5 years or maybe longer. My mom and i have been kinda boycotting them since as long as i can remember.

Aaron is really worried about me leaving. I honestly just do not know what to tell him. I think I'm really caught up in all this excitement that i haven't really thought of how its going to affect him. It'll all be okay, I'm pretty sure of that.
so we sat around and kinda talked about that.

exciting day in the life of jade.

i stood in the backyard in my robe as it rained this morning.
it was the best feeling Ive had in awhile.

Mom and i went to see (500) days of summer tonight, it was a sad movie. I really liked the way they filmed it. Joseph Gordon-Levitt was so good looking and perfect in that part, i just love him. Then Zooey Deschanel is just adorable.

Then we went to ihop for dinner. Finally tired the pineapple upside down pancakes. very good but way super sweet.

then i had drama, i don't feel like writing about it. I just don't know why i let other people get me down. Even Mrs.Pat at my moms work was telling me just today to not let others get to me. And what do you know some stupid idiot asshole makes me cry.
i hate being down.

today started out pretty well

i woke up super early to finish mowing the lawn.
then mom made smoothies and while Jeff and Derek were fixing the AC in my car we watched a bunch of the 70's show.
Then my family's favorite thing to do, we went to eat Mexican food!

and that is another one of my lazy days

oh i went bowling since it was dollar night. Then got in a stupid fight with Luke, i hate fighting. That's why i adore Aaron, even when we get into fights i actually get to win them because he wants thing to be good and so do I.

I need to sleep now.

i just finished watching transformers2, i haven't seen the first one so i was kinda lost. It was still a pretty awesome movie.

Luke woke me up this morning to put some stuff on his tattoo, then he decided to go get his other tattoo. And that's what we did. I guess he's the kinda person that if he makes his mind up about something then that is exactly what he is going to do. I think that's one of the well know trait of Scorpios. Two different tattoos in less then 24 hours, it just looked so painful!

it only took like 20 mins to do his second one, which was really quick. so i went back home and took a nap, it was just too hot to mow the lawn. I was sleeping the heat away. After my much needed nap dripping with sweat i mowed.

then spent a lot of time laying on the couch.

i want to write like i used too. I cant though. I feel like something is missing inside of me, and its the one thing i need to write. I tried writing last night but i failed miserably. I have to go find whatever is missing.

the sound of thunder and rain pelting my window woke me up around 3 something this morning.
I love big storms though, especially when they last a long time and you can feel your whole house shake. I think it is because i love change, and all we ever have is hot, very hot, and extremely hot that you cant breath.

Aaron and i went to see Public Enemies
It was kinda long but totally worth it.

then we went to the park but it was way to hot
i think i might have burnt myself on the swing set seat.
It was fun, besides the heat thing.

Then i decided to be lame
went home, showered
Finished the first season of that 70's show

Then Luke asked me to look up something for this tattoo he wanted
so i printed everything off and headed over there
on our way to the parlor we picked up Jake
we ended up never finding the one place we were looking for and this other place wouldn't let him do it and Jake and i were convinced to find this other shop.
Then there in the distance gleamed the "TATTOO" sign

His tat turned out pretty good, but it looked painful as hell!
So we went to Luke's sat outside, then Jake's and sat outside
and i was eaten alive by mosquitoes!

after seeing multiply ihop commercials I'm so determined to try the pineapple upside down pancakes sometime soon!

i had a pretty good day.
definitely equal in me being lazy and having a good time. I hope more of these days are too come.

for some reason i didn't feel like doing anything at all today
i didn't even wanna get out of bed, but i did.

things i accomplished today:
Made an appointment to finally get my hair fixed
Got dressed
Went to the appointment
two hours later i was back home
i baked some chicken for lunch
sat on the couch
watched multiple hours of that 70's show
waited for ACC to call
yay ,they called
scheduled my classes finally
feel asleep on the couch
watched some more TV with mom
ordered some pizza
picked up a movie
picked up the pizza
and watched the movie

wow, what a boring day i had.
i honestly enjoyed every boring moment of it.
Now I'm going to be even more boring and lay on the couch some more.

i got up around 630

i was supposed to leave my house at 7

I didn't even get a hold of Jen till 815

Jen showed up around 930

the first three hours of my day were spend waiting and for some reason my house was just freezing which made it worse

we got to Austin and i had my stuff together to get the hold dropped on my account but the ogre of a woman behind the counter wont take the copy of my social security card, since i have no idea where my real one is.
Social Security offices here i come.
luckily that only took like and hour and a half and i rushed back to the school to get everything fixed. yay success. BUT i still cannot register for my classes till tomorrow.

after that fiasco i started getting kinda shakie from not eating anything so we stop at ThunderCloud yum! But i didn't remember that Brittany didn't like sandwiches so she just sat there while Jen mom and i stuffed our faces.

We ended up missing our appointment with this one apartment by a mere two hours. All was well though. Besides all these crazy ridiculous fees and such and such. Its so hard to get opinions outta my family when you want them. When you don't really care oh they will spill their passionately opinionated hearts out.
In the end we decided to go look some more.
Then we found it we found the place we knew we wanted to stay. Well i knew. I honestly still am not sure if this is what Jennifer wants. Shes totally in love and i feel bad that she'll not be as close to him anymore, but she says its what she wants.

Then we realize Brittany still hasn't eaten anything so we took our applications and headed to McDonald's!

I really dont feel like going into detail about the rest of the day but here is pretty much the low down..
stuck in traffic outta Austin
Got lost trying to get to round rocks
yay for outlet malls
exhausted outta my mind trying to drive home
Yummy taco bell dinner

That's about it, besides Brittany standing in my closet singing ,"ZOMBBBIIIE..ZOMBIIEE"
and sayin "hey man you ready for the parrrrrr-ttttttt??"

well i went to get my AC looked at today and the good news is it will be able to be fixed bad news is it wont be till next week ugghh

so after that i was back home

i had a fairly productive day i would say... i got rid of two trash bags full of clothes yay!
but i still need to just give in and let go of a lot more!

then i just laid on the couch ate Lucky Charms and watch like 3 hours of That 70's Show.

then i was off in my non working AC car to drop off the water bill.
and well that's about it

oh i just went a got my little auntie Bri !

WARNING RANT:
So tonight i tried to read a friend of mines emotions but some people are so hard to read. I would think if someone was trying to read me it would probably be pretty easy. I'm really terribly at hiding my inner thoughts and or emotions, i try but i end up failing every time. So when i know that someone is holding something back its frustrating. Ive had so many people in my life that have had serious problems and I'm always good at helping. Its automatic for me to want to help. so i offer my help but i feel like there is no reason cause i guess they have other people to help, even though i know that they actually want my help but don't ask. I just did'nt know. I just hope ill eventually help. I know this makes no sense.
END OF THE RANT!
okay sorry

Bri and i are just watching Lula running around in her yellow ball and its terribly entertaining!

Road trip tomorrow!

well today i did a bunch of nothing.

i woke up around 6 something to find Lula had escaped outta her cage. luckily the room i was staying in wasn't fully furnished and i found her right away.
Then i had my hour drive home, ride home i mean.

When i got home i just crashed.

I really didn't feel like doing anything today so i just stayed home for awhile. I was getting tired of eating celery so i texted Aaron.
So we went to eat then walked around Target for awhile.
then i went home and tried to register for my classes but there is a hold on my account. ugh.
and so Ive just been laying on the couch watching tv with my momma.

Conan will be on soon!

weekEND

SATURDAY:
so today i was supposed to go to my friend Lisle's moms memorial service. I told her i would be there and i really wanted to be there for her i just couldn't. It made me so sad and i just missed my dad so much.

Instead i ended up going to my uncle troys house for his baby's 1st birthday. Then mom and i were off to see their new house!

This place is so wonderful. Its going to be their own private haven. Its all by itself in the country and it backs up to a pond. When we first pulled up a skunk was running away from thew house with his tail in the air. Oh and the deer! They are so beautiful!

Before we even went to the house today we went to eat at this place called Loco Coyote. It was so much food but oh so good. Well since i had forgotten to find someone to take care of Lula i just brought her with me i ended up having to stick her in my purse when we went to eat. It was pretty funny cause i was feeding her under the table. After that Brian and Deborah favorite thing to do is go ridding around so we did.

Since the air and the water in our house wasn't ready we are staying the night with Brian and Deborah. If i can get over my paranoia of being stung by a scorpion i think im about to go to sleep. Mom just crashed me and I'm just exhausted. She had stopped really fast when i was turned the other way and knee went into something and i hit my head on the dash all because of a baby deer. Well i guess we'll see what tomorrow brings!


SUNDAY:

Were staying in our new house tonight!

Woke up this morning to a wonderful breakfast and then i got to see wild baby rabbits!
Not only did i get to see them i got to hold them. They were just sweetest babies, the one i kept holding had this little white spot on its forehead and kept snuggling into my arm! I wanted to taken him home so bad!

Then we went and road around the property on the Mule. Ya we had six people packed into the mule and i was stuck in the front between Jelly Belly Brian and my step dad who is not the skinny hippy he used to be. It was fun though. We got to see Elk, a wild hog, some more baby deer, and i don't remember what the other kinda deer was called, and then we went up to Kimberly and Cody's house, which they have only stayed in once in the past year. Its huge! Oh and they are big gamers their is a Stuffed Giraffe from Africa and some giant bear that was killed in Russia, and then a lot of birds and deer and some other animals. Oh ya and a pool they never use. So we we'll get to use it.

Then it was getting pretty late so we went back to Brian and Deborah's and had some lunch. Then i took the mule and went down to our house and tried out the new lenses Brian is letting me borrow. Then my brother showed up. So i went back up to the other house to say hi and what not. Then Jeff took him and my brothers mom and his sister down to see our new house. So we just waited around i held the baby bunny. Then only Jeff came back. I'm pretty pissed off at my brother and his mom, he was supposed to stay with us for at least a few days but no she just took off with him. I just feel bad for Jeff why the hell would she drive an hour just to stay for 20mins then leave. And Jacob didn't even say bye to us. Its just dumb.

After the uncalled for drama we went down to the new house and just sat on the porch and feed the fish in the pond. The pond is awesome . Its this really pretty blue and since the sun was still out and it was still pretty damn warm we went swimming in it tonight. I was too scared to be the first person in. Good thing though two feet off the bank it gets like twenty feet deep.
Then we all just sat on the dock and tried to find some star constellations and conversed about extraterrestrial life.

Its pretty late now and i have to get up at 630 so im off.

Woke up super early since i had no idea if Jen was going to make it or not.
So i gave her a call ...no answer. So i decided to just get up anyways then to my surprises she called me back and was already on her way here!

ROAD TRIP!

so around 730a.m. we were off to Austin!
it was terribly hot driving around the whole day with my half ass AC. And stupid Garmin kept taking is right back to the same spot, that thing hates me i swear.

I'm all registered for school. yay! And we have an idea of where we are going to move! another yay!

Today was major loopy day for me and Jen. I cannot even begin or know how i would explain how goofy we were. I think it was probably just from going in and out of the heat, or mainly just being in the heat all day and hardly eating anything. I had a healthy diet of a bag of ranch flavored corn nuts, a turkey and cheese sandwich , a bunch of water , a free cookie and a red bull. Delightfully nutritious.

Tonight is my mom and step dads 20yr reunion! ya for them. Its kinda weird cause when then have their 40th ill be having my 20th ahh! Oh and i think it was Jeff's uncles 40th reunion this year actually. That is just crazy to me.

2mins after Jennifer left i heard a knock on the door. Turns out she left her lights on all day and her car was dead! In my pajamas go get the jumper cables out, but were both kind of timid caused by our fear of getting shocked. We quickly over came our fear and got her car back up and running on out second try. yay, success!

well...now I'm home, writing, listening to the Kooks
and feeling extremely fatigued.

well I'm pretty darn proud of myself.
i got all my stuff done!

Got my transcripts from both places and my diploma, canceled my tanning membership (!!), went to the bank to deposit money, then searched for apartments !
oh and all of this before 1 ! yay!

after that i was pretty lazy.

oh, i watch an episode of weeds today...that is such a marvelous show!

Sweet Genvieve is turning one on Saturday, so mom and i went to get her something. Once again i was laughing so much at the little tiny shoes! At least my mom was laughing with me, sometimes i think I'm just a clone of her. Id rather be like my mom then any other person though. I ended up finding this little yellow shirt that had a sun a rainbow some flowers and a unicorn and i had to get it for her, hopefully her mom will put her in it. Shes kinda strange sometimes but who isn't.

So i was sent to go get some milk and a movie. Freaking red box is always busy! I ran into miss Alice and we went to blockbuster! I most definitely broke one of the shelve in there, how i did it i have no idea but it was hilarious Alice and i were trying to pick up all the movie things that fell but we gave up.

so Hamlet 2 was strangly great.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go look at apartments with Jennifer. I'm not going to lie I'm really nervous that she is going to bail out on me. She does have a lot going on i just hope she doesn't forget, if not I'm stranded. I'd rather not have to rely one other people, it makes me feel vulnerable i think cause I've been let down so much by people.

well I'm wishing for the best!

whimsical wednesday

Whimsical Wednesday:

Aaron and i when to go pick up my transcripts today. Well apparently it just wasn't supposed to be, after finding out i needed my diploma or a transcript from high school to get my college one, we headed over to the damn high school. FAIL! on the window was a little pink note which read "closed 7-8 due to construction will be opened 7-9". Needless to say i know what ill be doing tomorrow morning !

off to the Goodwill we were! In the store Aaron was looking at some shirts so i went to look at shoes! well in the shoe area where like 50 little bitty baby shoes. I do not know why but that make me laugh so much! Oh i was just cracking up at the little sandals, I'm sure i looked like something was wrong with me. but they were so little i just couldn't help but giggle. we ended up not finding anything. since it didn't work out we thought we would try to find some other thrift store... another failure. I still had fun listen to good music just driving around.

Even after all those failures it was actually a good day, until i somehow ticked off Aaron.
I don't know why we always end of pissing one or the other off but we do. We usually don't stay that mad long. well maybe that's just me, but we somehow always work it out which makes my heart happy.

Buy one get one free whataburger tonight! what a great dinner with my momma while we watched some dance off show. Not having cable really isn't bad except for some of the reality American idol type shows that get old after awhile. And there is always hulu !

Oh my saving is going great so far Ive only spend $1.48!
yay!

well now i can feel my eyes starting to burn form staring at the screen too long , i think my day is done.

today was a day of success

Jen and fought through our inner procrastination and indecisiveness and finally made a plan!

i just really hope we can execute it! we have an idea of where and when we want to move, what school I'm going to try to go to, and what we are looking for. I'm terribly nervous. i want everything to work out well. I know it will though. I just gotta make sure to save my money! no more frivolous spending! I'm eating all three meals at home, going to not drive as much (haha), going to survive off what i already have, im just going to save anyway i can think to!

after driving at least 70 miles with no AC, it decided to randomly turn on when i was like 20miles form home. I swear that car has a mind of its own.

Aaron and i went to some field to take some pictures tonight i think some came out really good. It was all at the expense of our skin, I'm so itchy its unbearable!

I'm going to pop benadryl and kick back with a book till i fall asleep.

took my momma to work today, thank goodness for the HOV lane!

On the way home i decided to go by Laurel Land. You could tell it had just rained by the by the grass and the smell in the air. I was just sitting on the concrete next to my dads site and i kept hearing a lot of chirping when i looked in the tree there were three sparrows. They were so pretty. Then a man in a golf cart stop and asked if i was okay since i was just sitting in front of my car. It was nice. I don't know when i got there or when i left, i was just enjoying the scenery, listening to Brown Eyed girl. Anytime dad or I would hear that song on the radio we had to call the other. Now Meagan will call me anytime she hears it.

I ended up going on an accidental adventure on my way home. I decided that i would try to go a different way. All i ended up doing was driving further away form home. But i did get to see some really pretty trees and some real run down houses. Once i got to the third town that i had never heard i decided to stop and ask for directions. then success i was on the right track home.

I guess my day kinda ended there. I ended up just staying home today. I unpacked and cleaned and did laundry that's about it. oh and i got Lula back yay.

oh the strangest thing happened today, i had three people tell me that i was in there dreams either last night or the night before i thought that was crazy. Two of them i haven't talked to in awhile so i wonder how i managed my way into there mind. I think dreams are so interesting. Most of the time you can backtrack and see how parts of your dream relate to events or conversations in your day and that's pretty impressive. But the dreams that have nothing to do with the day before are pretty far out.

sweet dreams.

week of vaca!

I went on vaction for a week!
I had to wifi so i couldnt post anything but... i still wrote everyday and here are my adventures from my trip to rock port.

Day 1

Today was my first day of Vaca hooray!

I almost stayed awake the whole ride I’m so proud of myself I did fall into temptation when my eyes decided they were heavier then my will to stay awake. After my thirty min nap that to me seemed like five mins I had to dive. It was the first time I got to drive during family road trip. Oh and I got pick the music. Good thing that I have to same taste in music as Jeff.

So I guess ever since Jeff made a trip to New York without any radio at all he likes to see how long the people in the car can go without it. Well I need music to dive. So we listen to the Rolling Stone between the buttons album.

We made it to the house unloaded and decided to do pretty much nothing. Since we haven’t had cable for at least two years we soaked in as much as possible. I have the Sanford and Son theme song stuck in my head.

I think it’s a sign for me to go sleep.

Day 2

Well today after sleeping in for awhile Jeff and I decided to go to the beach.

It was actually really nice. I have never seen the water so pretty down here. I’m saying it looked blue! Not the nasty brow that it usually is, it was blue. Not just blue, you could see your feet even when it got a little deeper!

So we were really cautious about sunscreen. I personally put on 30 spf four times everywhere! I think I saw Jeff put it on about three times. Well we got home and he is as red as a lobster! It looks so painful. Just the expression on his face when he moves it’s pretty hilarious. The sun had it in for me as well. Just the top of my back is burnt. Good thing I had a little bit of a tan before or else I would be in so much pain, and would be taking an aloe bath tonight.

We are going to have to wait before going back to the beach. It’s not like its going anywhere.

Day 3

Since Jeff wanted to stay away from the sun as much as possible we had to think indoors today. So we decided to go to this ship museum that neither of us had ever been to. We get to there and to our luck they were letting people in for free today! It was pretty cool especially since it was free!

Then we went to meet Jiffs’ Aunt and Uncles for dinner. It was at a place called paradise key it was so good. We where there with Brian and Deborah who are so amazing then Bob and Maxine showed up. They gave me the coolest photo album it had my named etched in it and 2009 it was so nice. After dinner we all piled in the hummer and drove around the streets around the beach. I have never been in a hummer until tonight. The windows are so small! It’s crazy it this giant thing with this little bitty short windows. We took Bob and Maxine back to there car and headed back to Brian and Deborah’s house. We sat around watched the news about freaking Michael Jackson. I swear it gets more and more annoying every time I see it.

After showing Brian some of my photography I drove that giant truck back home.

Still soaking up that cable! Well my momma comes in tomorrow and I got to get up early!

Day 4

Yay for more time at the beach!

We picked up mom and Derek today! Then went to the beach!

It wasn’t as nice as it was the other day but it was still better then usually. I decided to have a belly off with my uncle Brian. He won by far! I pushed my tummy out as far as I could but his was just way bigger.

Mom and I played washers and I actually got one of the washers into the middle hole. How I did it I have no idea but I am so proud of myself!

After being in the sun all day and that wonderful shower I just had I am exhausted. I think I'm going to have a bowl of Moollennium and hit the hay.

Day 5

Today was the day of food I swear I ate so much today.

After sleeping in pretty late we were off to pops for lunch! Then I found out that I was going to have to email all the photos to the last girl I had taken photos for. As I said before the only place to get service is DQ! Well it took about and hour and a half to send 21 photos! When I’m finally done and get back to the house I find out were already going to eat again but this time it a Super Chinese Buffet. Well that’s a fact!

There was this man there and you could tell he had had a stroke. He had the little three leg walker thing that my dad had used in rehab. He walked the way my dad did in rehab. When he walked past a table that was singing happy birthday to some ungrateful trashy looking girl he just lit up and put a smile on his face and helped the unhappy waiter and waitress sing to her. I couldn’t help but cry he reminded me of dad so much. I had to get up and go outside. Derek tried to cheer me up by telling me that I’m doing a good job but in reality I don’t know what I’m doing. My heart just goes out to that man and any other stroke survivor.

After dinner we walked the pier. The current had picked up and you could almost feel it underneath you. Then we went and walked the beach. In the distance I could see like five little kids and they were by this big bump in the sand. I couldn’t figure it out what it was. When we got a little closer I heard the kids screaming to the bump to get up and I figured out it was a person. He was scaring the kids by not moving which was pretty funny. When we turned around to walk back to the car I look to the ocean and it scared the life outta me was a body just laying face first in the sand. It was the same jackass form earlier. Go figure.

Tomorrow is Fourth of July I’m so excited about this arts festival whose tents have been taunting me since I got here!

Day 6

Independence Day!

I don’t know how you spell independence but I spell it with breakfast burritos, an overly crowded beach, a 600 page book, henna tattoos, hot dogs, fireworks, and traffic.

I have never seen these beaches so crowded it was just insane to me how close people were parked! I looked down the beach all I that was there were people and cars as far as my eyes would strain to see, hardly and inch between people. Oh and how dumb can people get is what id like to know. If you see someone in the ocean with a fishing pole why the hell would you go right by them and boogie board? Jeff is out pretty far just casting away and these kids just go right by him and swim in front of him. Fishing pole = fish. Little fish = Big fish close behind. Oh how can people be so unintelligent? That is one of my biggest pet peeves when people do not use their common sense.

On the way to the beach mom and I decided we would get some absurd henna tats for the hell of it. When we left the beach we were on a quest to find a place. Then success! Two places right by each other. So Derek decides to get” I <3>

After eating my healthy dinner of a few hot dogs a pickle spear we were off to hunt for firework seats. We actually got really good seats and I’m pretty sure this is one of the first Fourth of July I really appreciated.

Tomorrow were heading home. I really do love to go on vacation, but then again I’m cannot wait to sleep in my own bed,